Difficulty often leads to Beauty

My friend and I were watching TV and eating Dove candy one night when I came across the following quote in a Dove candy wrapper.

Difficult roads often lead to Beautiful destinations.”

Jetta L from Massachusetts

It really spoke to me because I have had a not so good life for the most part.  I have gone through physical, sexual, emotional, mental, and verbal abuse as well as being homeless twice, raped three times,  had an abortion because of a rape, Bipolar II, PTSD, Schizo-affective Disorder, trying to raise my kids as best as I could while being single after my last two divorces trying to take care of my mental issues and myself all at the same time – Unfortunately, the kids were the ones to suffer more than I did, living in a park, living in the streets, trying to hold down a job while dealing with almost suicidal depression, being on drugs (been cleaned since 24January1999) – Crystal Meth and Cocaine, (Not Crack,) and also moving from family member to family member because I was such a rebellious and hard to handle child. (It was not fun.)  I would not listen to anyone, especially if you were a man.  My granddad would say that I could only learn things through the University of Hard Knocks.  At first I thought it was a real university , like Ole Miss, but then I learned the truth, meaning that I was hard headed and could only learn by doing and making the mistake myself.  No one could just tell me about how to do or not to do something.  I had to learn it on my own.

Being the red flag in the tug of war of hatred between my two families didn’t help me at all. You would think that I would be good at least on negotiation, but sadly no. I am just good at staying in the background and working behind the scenes.   Now, I’m only in touch with a 2-4 members on both sides, but for the most part, I’m the black sheep and not to be associated with them at all.  They don’t know how hard that is on me.  Don’t get me wrong.  I still love them and lift them up in prayer ever day, but I would like to talk to them and see what they’re up to every so often.  I tried with one of my cousins a couple years ago, but it ended almost as soon as it began.  I guess some of it is my part because I have not stayed in touch, but now I don’t know their numbers except one and I have tried It several times with no call back as of right now.

I am finally on good medication and in a good place. I am in therapy again, but this time I really like this person and the way that the sessions are going.  I knot that this is not an over night process, but then again it didn’t happen  all in  one night.  It took years for all the stuff to happen and affect me so I guess that it will take me a long time to get me free.  I am facing my demons head-on now, and my difficulties are turning into beauty. I finally like myself and know that God loves me.  I know that God is my Father and Jesus is my Lord and Savior.  Jesus loves me so much that if He had to die again just for me, He would. I know that I am going to heaven, and I am trying to serve Jesus in this lifetime as well.

You know Jesus and  God love you too.  Jesus would climb back on that Cross and die again for you. Just for you!  That says a lot.  You are worth that much to Him. God is the Father of all Mankind.  He is the Creator.  He spoke everything into creation, not just some things! Jesus is His Son and part of the Godhead.  His was a virgin birth. He taught for 3 years then died on the cross between two thieves.  One was saved and went to heaven with Jesus and the other one didn’t.  Jesus was raised from the dead three days later and after revealing himself to many people, He went up to Heaven and sits at the right hand of God.

Do you want to go to Heaven or do you want to be like the other thief and try to swim in the Lake of Fire?

Turn your Difficulty into Beauty with God and Jesus Christ!

Becoming the Woman God Wants Me to Be – Day 1&2

Place Your Full Confidence in God/ Commit Yourself to Time Alone with God

Scripture of Week to Memorize

“A Wife of Noble Character who can find?

She is worth far more than rubies.

Her Husband Has full confidence in her

and lacks nothing of value.”

Proverbs 31:10-11

 

Passage of Day to Read – Day 1

“For your Maker is your Husband —

the Lord Almighty is His name —

the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer:

he is called the God of all the earth.

The Lord will call you back

as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit —

 a wife who married young,

only to be rejected” says your God.

Isaiah 54:5-6

Passage to Read – Day 2

Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed.

Simon and his companions went to look for , and when they found him, they exclaimed: “Everyone is looking for you!”

Jesus replied, “Let us go somewhere else — to the nearby villages — so I can preach there also. That is why I have come.”

So he traveled throughout Galilee, preaching in their synagogues and driving out demons.

Mark 1:35-39

Day 1

Today the trait  “noble” is harder to find more than ever before.  Let’s define it first.  It means dignified and gracious.  In the Amplified Bible the word for noble is rendered “capable, intelligent, and virtuous.” Such a woman would definitely be hard to find in the world today. Are you such a woman?  Am I?  Not yet, but I am working on it.  Work on it with me. 

We are intelligent, dignified, virtuous, capable, gracious women who fill with full confidence in those whose around and in whom rely on us most no matter whom that shall be. People around cam have total confidence in us because our confidence rests in God and we live appropriately.

What’s the ultimate sign that someone loves you?  It is that they would lay down their life for you. Well, God has shown his love for us. Jesus laid down his life to make sure that someday in the future each of us will be special guests at the ultimate wedding in heaven, when Jesus holds the celebration for the church as his eternal bride. (see Revelations 21)

Don’t focus on human feedback.  Focus on your relationship with you Heavenly Husband and live to please Him.  During God’s metamorphose of your life, You will become a even more beautiful bride and a woman of noble character that will in the end bring her praise from the people most important.  It will not happen over night, but enjoy the inner satisfaction that come from becoming the woman God wants me to be.

Day 2

Prayer is your direct line to God and is so important that you should have a special place that is only yours and God’s.  Let it be your Pray Closet ( oasis, corner, space, or just plan area) that is set aside just for your time with God.

Henri Nouwen said,

“Discipline is the human effort to  the space  in which

God can be generous and give us what we need. “

 

According to Proverbs 31 the husband is to have “full confidence” in his wife. “Confidence comes in a relationship from investing time in that relationship.”  You have to communicate in that relationship. So that for God to have full confidence in you, you have to talk to Him and obey him.

“God wants us to stand out as woman who know we have something of value.  If you want to have something valuable  to offer the world, we must have something of value to offer.” The value we are talking about is more than material value.  See this  world puts dollars and cents on everything.  They put it on human lives. Yes, it’s still legal in some countries.  But I’m talking about investing your time in seeking and exploring heavenly treasures such as knowledge of Scripture, and the power to demonstrate the fruit of the Spirit, spiritual insight, ability to carry the presence of God with us where go,

Do you want to be an inspiration to the people that you meet and to everyone around you and mean something to you? Yes, you do! The only way you can do that is by putting God first in your life and talking to Him first thing in the morning?

Bruce Wilkison said,

“I have yet to find a respected leader throughout history who had devotions at night.”

Morning talks with God set to tone for the day.  If you talk to God first thing in the morning, God can also order your life. I  ask Him what He wants me to do that day and He lets me know.

I have found that I have the worst days when I am rushed out the door and miss my time with God.  It’s my own fault because I didn’t hear my alarm, but my day is just no good.  Now on those I try to make time for God and then after that my day does seem to get better.  I know how that sounds, but it is true!

Before you meet with husband, , before you face your family,  before fix breakfast, before deal with the whole world, before you absolutely anything, start your day our right by having a meeting with God.

I challenge you to take the first 30 minutes or more every day for 2 weeks straight to talk  to God. Then leave me a comment and let me know how you feel.  I know that God have worked miracles in my life just because I spend time talking to Him.

Tolerating the Devil?

I am amazed at the world today and it is not in a good way. I was reading Matthew Winter’s ‘What happened to tolerance?” and it brought it all to a head for me. I was not happy about it all and I have to have my say.

I was born in 1967. I was taught morals and what was right was right. What was wrong was wrong. Every man and woman no matter their skin tone deserved an equal pay and vote. I remember after homework and afternoon snack if the weather was nice and sometimes when it was not outside we would go until dinner was on the table or it was dark. Our toys were the dirt and the trees and the grass. We had play clothes and school clothes and church clothes, and you did not get them mixed up. You always went to church on Sunday, there just was no talking yourself out of it. You had church and school dances and plenty of outing to go to that kept you busy tell your of age to date. Then your in High School and the pressure’s on. How far do you let the boy go? Too far and your a slut not far enough and your a prissy. A girl just couldn’t win. If you had sex in high school you weren’t the kind to take home to mom. If you waited too long, the guy loses interest. Now I’m a PK, Preacher’s Kid, so I had it worst than most and It didn’t help when the second guy I ever dated came back to school and said I was a home run when we didn’t even kiss much less hold hands. I was so upset. It pretty much put me off dating till college. I will tell you for a date with a college guy I did walk 6 miles into town , and it was safe to do that. I got a ride back home, and I did get in trouble for sneaking out and that was in 1985.

Here’s a true story that will really show the times we live in. I’m in the 5th grade, two popular girls came up to me after class and kept asking me who I was gay with. I kept saying, “Well, Scott, Makes me laugh. and Eric, always had good jokes.” But it wasn’t until I said,” But my Mom makes me the happiest with these little notes that she leaves me all over the house.” They run off yelling at the top of their lungs, “Cheryl’s gay with her Mother!” I turned red and started to cry though I didn’t know why. I ran home that day tears rolling down my cheeks. I asked Mom about it and she didn’t know. This wasn’t new because to Mom, a French kiss was oral sex. So I went to GrandDad and that was when I found out there was another meaning to the word gay.

Now I’ve raised my children the best that I could in this world. There are now armed guards in their schools and metal detectors as well. My kids could not have metal lunch boxes or any metal at all except for keys to home. They were locked in during the day for their own security. These days we have school shooters killing our children in these locked down schools. Gangs run our streets to the point where it is safer to join a gang than it is to try to live on your own without their protection. There are a lot more places that children and even adults can’t go out of their homes to the corner store alone without fear of harm. Even in the country parts of Mississippi where I grew up I read of a man killing his neighbor just for his land because his neighbor wouldn’t sell to him. It is getting wrong in the world when brother is fighting brother over a piece of land. I want to tell them, “It’s all good. It all belongs to God!!!!!! It’s not yours anyway.”

We are in the End Times! The only thing wrong with the End Times is that God never said how long it would last. But if you really look around you will see without difficulty the prophecies coming true. Man is laying with Man. Woman is laying with woman. Babies are having babies because the government pays them more for the more kids they have despite the fact that they don’t know how to raise them or not have the room to house them properly, as well as can’t handle the number of children that they have. Young men turning to drug dealing because it’s easy money and dropping out of school to do it. More homeless Vets because the government can’t help them now that they are out of the service. This is NOT of God!!!!! We are NOT to Tolerate this. People are asking where is God. Well there is a song that says that, “That’s why God created you!” When are YOU going to start standing up and fighting for what God stands for instead of “Tolerating” the Devil? Are You all arm chair quarterbacks? When are You going to get into the game of life? On Whose side are You playing?

I am in Prayer

Psalm 109:4 NLT

“I love them, but they try to destroy me with accusations even as I am praying for them!”

People come in so many shapes and sizes. No two are alike even in identical twins there are at least some differences.  It’s the way that God designed it.  People though, try to make themselves like each other, and when your not, they get unkind about it.  They also get unkind if you are better than they are in the work place or if they “think” at being a wife or mother.  It all bowls down to how the other person really “Thinks”.  Some people hold you up to an impossible standard like your children sometimes or your husband or boyfriend.  Then there are some people that should hold you up, but don’t which is just plain sad.

When you don’t preform up to other people’s standards or in the fashion that they think you should, they tend to “tear you down” and say bad things about you.  That is what this passage of Scripture is talking about today.  Some people want to destroy you because they “think” you have a better life than they have.  Others because you have something they want.  Still others because you’ve got something they want. And still others because they want to win, and finally others just to break you and  put you down into the ground.  It’s not pretty, but it’s the Human Truth – “Everyone out for themselves at any cost to their fellow man.”  Of Course this is not God’s Way, “Love your Neighbor as Yourself.” unfortunately.

Satan wants us at each other’s throats and fighting for everything we have tooth and knuckle.  He would have us bloody and weak from all our fighting amongst ourselves.  That way he could just swoop in and take us easy, without a fight.  Satan doesn’t like to fight.  He likes to come in the back door like a burglar and kill you from the inside out all nice  and quiet.  He can’t stand the light of God because Jesus already defeated him.

You see Jesus brought the Satan out into the Light and Defeated him once and for all so we don’t have to be afraid of him anymore.  Satan is like a lion without any teeth.  All he can do is roar at you.  I mean, what’s else is he going to do?…..Gum you to death?..,….LOL   1 Peter 5:8 States it perfectly – NLT “Stay Alert! Watch out for your great enemy the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.”

When we find ourselves in these situations and the devil is hard on our cases,  All we have to do is turn to God in prayer and He will give us strength to endure anything.  I love my Heavenly Father so very much.  He has gotten me through some very hard times, and it was all through prayer and obedience.  Even if all you can do is say Jesus’s name out loud, that in itself is a mighty prayer because there is power in the name of Jesus!!!!!  Jesus has always been there for me and I know that He will always be there for you and get you through too.

Dear Heavenly Father,

 Please be with Whomever is reading this post right now and speak to their hearts.  Let them know that You are near and that You’ve got things well in hand even if  everything around them is spinning out of control at this time. Wrap your strong arms of comfort, peace and joy around them and let them know in their soul that they are truly loved. I humbly ask these things in thy Son’s name, AMEN