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Preacher’s Kids

Okay, just in case you didn’t get the subject matter from the title; ” I is one.” I have a little experience on the matter. Preacher’s kids, as a whole, have a bad reputation as soon as we are born. So much is expected of them without their haveing a say so in the matter. Didn’t we throw a tea party in Boston a long time ago to get out from under the thumb of unlawful rules and laws in which we had no say so.?

Preacher’s kids are easily put into two types. Just like everything in life, they are at the extremes of the rainbow. First is the “perfect child”. They do what is expected of them with little rebellion. They grow up in the Lord; just as is hoped for. They are the ones that are always first to jump in and work whenever and wherever they are needed. They are ones you see at all church activeities as always helpful and eager to pass out food at a Church picnc, cleanng up after a church funtions, and setting up for the functions as well . They play their roles and carry out the duties with little complaint. They have no trobule in believing and have faith in Jesus. They are the apple of their parent’s eye. When the world spins right, these are the ones that you rarely take notice jof because they are mostly in the back ground, or their the ones that leads everything

The second types are the “worst” to think of and a lot more seen and pointed out for their actitives which is what they want. They carry out their duties without question when they are young, but rebel more and more a they grow up. They take on the attitude that the church and Jesus are just another kind of conrol which of course was not for them. They are normally very head strong and unwilling to tke anything fro granted. They are the ones that you have to prove it with evidtions not just taking the word of a book or human. They question everything even the small things. They want to cut it up and see how it works. They want to put their hand in the wounds and holes of Jesus’ s body to make sure that it wasn’t a flim fan or just someone trying to sell them some snake oil. They are the ones which want to bite their teeth into it and taste the flavors of the it. They are the searchers who only believe in the here and now. Questioning is not wrong, but God asks them to believe and have faith in something without proof. This is the one thing that they cannot do.

I was labeled a troubled child right from the beginning even before I was able to act or understand what was expected of me.. People, even today, will hear that I am preacher’s kid and immediately take a dislike to me, or they expect me to be the leader. I have to admit that I wasn’t an easy child to raise or work with. I did a lot of things that I am not proud of, but some good came out it; they taught me many things hopefully more good that bad. Everything has to be proven to me. I would not take anyone’s word for anything, and still don’t according to my family. But I hope that I have been able to grow in this area of my life. Now looking back I can see God working in my life. Understanding comes from looking back. That looking back as we all know it is always 20/20.


I’m in the second categoryand I mean that it was totally me. My family kept trying to put me back into the “pool” so to say, but that was something that I would have none of it. I know that my rebellion did not please my family, but I couldn’t just play a role that I didn’t understand much less support. They just could not see why I was not like them. They just believed without anything to be proven to them. Belief was easy for them. I didn’t want to go to church much less any of they activities that had to do with Jesus or church. That was more to get their “goat” than it was because of the subject master. I was forced to take part in everhthing that they could get me into. I do have to admit that I enjoyed some of them. I met people from all walks of life. I learned somethings that I would never have learned without my rebellion. It took me a long time to really accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior, and to start my true walk with Him. I see now how God showed up and showed out in my life. He was always there. i just had to stop running and look allow Him to take over.

Don’t judge a book by it’s cover. Just because I’m a preacher’s kid doesn’t mean that I’m a bad apple. Even the “good” kids rebellion and mess up sometimes. I’m not always a “rock star” for Jesus, but I’m just human. God is working a great work in me , and he is not finished yet!!!!!

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White Flags lead to Positive Thinking

Today I was reading some article or watching something on TV and they were talking about the white flags that you wave when you say that you quit in total defeat. It’s when one side can’t handle the battle or war and they say “we quit.” It really got me to thinking. The white flag has the smell and feel that you are totally defeated. You can’t get away from it. It’s as if you are saying that your are no good and can’t deal with what is going on around you. You’re not up to the challenge Your giving in and can’t go any further. In more than one way you are giving up the fight, and saying that you are no longer going to play the game anymore. The only problem is that you really can’t give up the fight of life. It will go one with or without you, and there is nothing you can do about it. Really? Is it the end of your life? Can you sit by and not “live” and have no impact on the realm about you?

Does the white flag have to be in defeat and giving up on life? Well, let’s look at it another way. With Jesus, you wave the white flag not do show defeat and giving up but to show surrender to His will. Is it really an act of defeated and giving up on your life? No! You are saying that you are not in control of anything and that you are giving yourself to Jesus so He can use you as He sees fit.

Another word comes to mind when I think about the White Flag and Jeasus…..Freedom! When you let Jesus have His way with your life, a warm, furry blanket wraps aound you in total peace and joy like a coccoon. You have no worries beacuse God is in control and His plans are for you good not evil. If you allow Him to have his way with you, your path will be clear becuase nothing is impossible for God. What you actually experience is victory into of defeat

Now I’m not going to sit here and tell you that once you set yourself on the path to follow Jesus, you will not have any problems. In fact, you will in fact, have more battles, but with Jesus leading the way, You will prevail and win in the end. Take your problems to the Lord and in His own time, He will take you where H wants you to go so that you can do what He has called you to do.

Do words have power? Can they change anything? Freedom is a very common word, but the power that is behind it will amaze you. The freedom that you get from following Jesus is totally breathe taking and o wonderest.

Transform Your Mind for God

Romans 12:2 NKJV

“And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mins, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.”

Before you can transform your mind, you have to start every day to humble yourself before the Lord. To humble yourself, you have to first admit and then show your helplessness to follow God on your own, but willing to follow the teachings of Christ as well as acquire His character as your own. You labor in vain if you don’t receive inner power, all that is good, as well as love from God. You can’t love without receiving love from God. God is love and He gives His grace and love only to the humble.

James 4:6 NKJV

“But He gives more grace. Therefore He says:

‘ God resists the proud

But gives grace to humble’ “

God wants you to love and obey Him and also draw close to Him. When you do these things and keep yourselves open up to Him all the time, you can stand on and claim His love, power, and fulfillment.

When you start feeling like you are slipping far away God, you should drop down to your knees and start praying right then and there. First, you humble and then confess to God every sin that could be standing in your way to God. Search your Bible and then wait for the “golden nugget” that God wants you to learn from the “down time”. It might be greater empathy for others, more of God’s character, or even more of His love. Waiting for God/Holy Spirit’s unlimited potential and resurrection power living inside of you is the only way to endure the pain of this world and waiting for the “nugget” that God is wanting to give to you.

II Corinthians 10:5 NKJV

“casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,”

Now that you are waiting on God, you have to take you ideas, thoughts, imaginations, dreams, and beliefs captive to the obedience of Christ. All your words, actions and emotions come from somewhere inside you. They come from your mind and heart and you can wake each and every morning with the assurance that you have the power to control how you feel, what you say, and how you act during the entire day and night with God’s help. It is a constant adventure and daily war because the closer you are to God the more Satan doesn’t like it. No one is a victim!

Keep God first and you can’t go wrong.

Thank You!

Today, I have to tell you that I’m thankful for a lot of things in my life. Let me start with the basics. I am thankful for God who created me in His own image.  I’m thankful for Jesus who died on the cross for my sins. This means that I can ask for forgiven and become Holy again in the eyes of God.  My name is now written in the Lamb’s Book of Life.

I’m very thankful to every one of you that read my blog.  You take time out of your busyness to read what I said that day. You might even comment on it as well and start a conversation.

I’m thankful to my family, friends and my church family.  Y’all have taught me so much so much and have helped me grow in Walk with the Lord. You have helped me out when I needed it. Eric and Bonnie, Mark and Kitty, Ellen and Wylie, Barbara, Ms. Annie, Jennifer, and Michelle just to name a few.  You know who you are.

I am thankful for my ex-husbands for making me the better person that I am today.   Eric, you showed me the truth of and gentle side of real love, and what it means to be a true Southern Gentleman. I’m just sorry that I threw it away. Philip, you brought out a strength and determination in me that I didn’t know I had. You opened my eyes to several different worlds and I learned a lot. Paul, you supported me no matter what crazy idea I had. You got me to go back to college, and I now have my AS in Accounting.  Some members of my family thought I wouldn’t go back to college much less get a degree.

These are only a few of the people and the that I am thankful for. If you are not mentioned I am sorry, but you are loved as well.

Let’s be Still for a Change!

 

Exodus 14:14

“The LORD will fight for you, you need only to be still.”

and

Psalm 46:10

“Be still and know that I am God!

I will be honored by every nation.

I will be honored throughout the

world.”

The above scriptures both talk about being still for God, but you are being still for two completely different reasons.

Exodus 14:14 talks about how the you don’t have to do the fighting because the Lord will do the fighting for you, all you have to do is be still. Stop fighting. Let the Lord do the fighting for you.  Stand down. Lay down your arms.  Back off. Take a vacation.  STOP THE FIGHTING! BE STILL FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE AND LET GOD HANDLE IT!

Psalm 46:10 talks about being still in Spirit and getting to know the Spirit of God.  It is about tuning the world out and letting God in.  The only way that this can happen is by being still and letting yourself be quite.  You have to be able to concentrate on one thing at a time and that would be God.  CAN YOU BE STILL? SILENT?  CAN YOU LET GOD IN?

Is it really such a foreign concept in today’s society to be still?  To slow down? To stop and do nothing for a while?  Even for a minute? Can you do one thing at a time?  I know that it is hard for me to admit that it is hard for me to do just one thing  at time, but I am getting better at it the more I try.

You should try doing one thing at a time some time.  Try praying to God for 5 minutes without doing anything else one day.  When your mind starts to wonder, bring it back to God.  Keeping doing that over and over until your mind stops wondering. Pray to yourself or out loud. It doesn’t matter. Just spend time with your Heavenly Father only.  It’s not as easy as it sounds in our fast pace world unless you put forth the effort to do it.

You know what’s great about putting forth the effort to be still,  you let God do the fighting for you and you get to  know who God is which will allow you to grow more than you ever thought you could in ways that you could never have dreamed of in a million years. Great things will follow you if you let God have the reins of your life because God is working a great work in you, and He will be working it  until the day that Christ Jesus returns. Look it up for yourself.  It’s written right there in the Bible in black and white and red.  Jesus said it in RED so it MUST BE TRUE!!!!!  Not only are Jesus’s words in Red but they are covered in his blood.  You and I are covered in his blood.  Let us all be still together and Let God do His thing!

Difficulty often leads to Beauty

My friend and I were watching TV and eating Dove candy one night when I came across the following quote in a Dove candy wrapper.

Difficult roads often lead to Beautiful destinations.”

Jetta L from Massachusetts

It really spoke to me because I have had a not so good life for the most part.  I have gone through physical, sexual, emotional, mental, and verbal abuse as well as being homeless twice, raped three times,  had an abortion because of a rape, Bipolar II, PTSD, Schizo-affective Disorder, trying to raise my kids as best as I could while being single after my last two divorces trying to take care of my mental issues and myself all at the same time – Unfortunately, the kids were the ones to suffer more than I did, living in a park, living in the streets, trying to hold down a job while dealing with almost suicidal depression, being on drugs (been cleaned since 24January1999) – Crystal Meth and Cocaine, (Not Crack,) and also moving from family member to family member because I was such a rebellious and hard to handle child. (It was not fun.)  I would not listen to anyone, especially if you were a man.  My granddad would say that I could only learn things through the University of Hard Knocks.  At first I thought it was a real university , like Ole Miss, but then I learned the truth, meaning that I was hard headed and could only learn by doing and making the mistake myself.  No one could just tell me about how to do or not to do something.  I had to learn it on my own.

Being the red flag in the tug of war of hatred between my two families didn’t help me at all. You would think that I would be good at least on negotiation, but sadly no. I am just good at staying in the background and working behind the scenes.   Now, I’m only in touch with a 2-4 members on both sides, but for the most part, I’m the black sheep and not to be associated with them at all.  They don’t know how hard that is on me.  Don’t get me wrong.  I still love them and lift them up in prayer ever day, but I would like to talk to them and see what they’re up to every so often.  I tried with one of my cousins a couple years ago, but it ended almost as soon as it began.  I guess some of it is my part because I have not stayed in touch, but now I don’t know their numbers except one and I have tried It several times with no call back as of right now.

I am finally on good medication and in a good place. I am in therapy again, but this time I really like this person and the way that the sessions are going.  I knot that this is not an over night process, but then again it didn’t happen  all in  one night.  It took years for all the stuff to happen and affect me so I guess that it will take me a long time to get me free.  I am facing my demons head-on now, and my difficulties are turning into beauty. I finally like myself and know that God loves me.  I know that God is my Father and Jesus is my Lord and Savior.  Jesus loves me so much that if He had to die again just for me, He would. I know that I am going to heaven, and I am trying to serve Jesus in this lifetime as well.

You know Jesus and  God love you too.  Jesus would climb back on that Cross and die again for you. Just for you!  That says a lot.  You are worth that much to Him. God is the Father of all Mankind.  He is the Creator.  He spoke everything into creation, not just some things! Jesus is His Son and part of the Godhead.  His was a virgin birth. He taught for 3 years then died on the cross between two thieves.  One was saved and went to heaven with Jesus and the other one didn’t.  Jesus was raised from the dead three days later and after revealing himself to many people, He went up to Heaven and sits at the right hand of God.

Do you want to go to Heaven or do you want to be like the other thief and try to swim in the Lake of Fire?

Turn your Difficulty into Beauty with God and Jesus Christ!

“For as you think in your heart, so you are!”

This is a powerful Proverb. It says it all. Proverb 23:7 tells us in plain English that everything is tied into our thoughts and what we are thinking at this very moment. What are you thinking right now? Does it matter? I mean really matter in and to your life at this very moment?  Does it? The answer is a resounding “YES!”

People don’t realize that what they think dictates everything else about them: mood, feelings, words, attitude, behavior, and even actions and therefore reactions.  Your thoughts and therefore your imagination shapes your life.  If you want to change any thing at all about you, you have to start with changing your thinking it first.

Let’s take the number one thing that almost everyone knows about or has tried at least once in their lives: Dieting.  There are so many diets out there that it is hard to choose one. It is just crazy. You don’t know which one will work for you.

Of course, if you are anything like me you choose the one that will cause the least amount  of change to your routine and food intake or eating habits and the easiest to do and if it fits into your budget.  You pick a pill.  Maybe it works for a while so you lose the weight you wanted to and you stop taking the pill. All of a sudden you start gain the weight right back.  You go back on the diet again, but this time it doesn’t work. What do you do? You look for the Next Diet…

Again, you go for the one that offers little change or effort, but doesn’t work.  You are not a gym person so what are you going to do.  You can always jump on the diet bandwagon of those diets where you have to buy their food and never cook your own food again.  Is that what you really want? Are you ready to face the truth? Now?

You need to change your thinking! Then you will lose weight.  Start living healthy, and whole lives. Do some sort of exercise program.  It does not have to be at a gym.  It can be as simple as a yoga/video workout at home. Study and read the Bible about being healthy. It has a lot of things to say about and fill you thoughts with all those good thoughts.  Pray and God will help fill you mind with good thoughts too.

I’ve not had a very good life, but it’s made me the woman I am today.  I was (and still am to a point) a very angry woman. (God’s still working on me.  Praise the Lord) I am now in my 50s and it has taken me until now to know that negativity will slowly kill you.  It will eat you up from the inside.  You can’t love if you are always negative.  You will be miserable in your own little bit of hell and make everyone around you miserble too. There is no hope there either. There is only fear and despear. There is hate there too.  Do you want that?

I don’t want that anymore, but I backslide sometimes and God corrects me sternly, but patiently.  I am blessed with a housemate that is very humble, kind, caring, and forgiving of my faults.  She has helped me more than she will ever know.  She has taught me and most likely will teach me a lot more in the future.  I just pray that I am such a good friend to her.  At least I try to be.

Now Positive thinking is something to grab a hold of  and not let go.  If you start to fill you mind with Bible verses and positive quotes and thoughts which you share with all your friends, you will push all those negative thoughts out of your head then your mood, feeling, words, attitude, behavior, actions and even reactions will change in a more positive way.  You just might start loving people and finding hope again.  People will start to see the change in you, and start gravitating toward you instead of away.  You will get a pep in your step and be a happier person all around.

Don’t worry……Be Happy!