Mother’s Day

The above poem says it all that a mother should be.  A mother is a special type of woman.  She’s not perfect, but tries as hard as she can to take care of the people in her realm of influence, to protect them from the outside as much as they can, and to teach them everything that their charges need to know to succeed in the world today.  Some say that God shows His earthly love through Mother’s.  I can happen to agree in most cases, but there are some cases where that is not the case I am afraid to say.

In the world today, A woman has to fill so many roles in the family  and in Society.  She is a woman of many talents. She is not only a Mother to the children, but sometimes a part time or even full time Bread Winner trying to bring in money for the family to live on, Family Schedule Keeper and Organizer, Meal Planner and Chef to shop for food and prepare that said food into good (no great) dishes that  EVERYONE likes {if that is even possible}, a Scholar in furthering her degree in college or any training at all, and lastly and not least being possibly a Wife to her husband and keeping him happy.

The first mother was Eve as shown in Genesis:

Genesis 3:20

“Then the man – Adam – named his wife Eve,

because she would be the mother of all who live.”

The next big thing of Mother’s of the Bible are shown in the Ten Commandments in Exodus:

Exodus 20:12

“Honor Your Father and Mother, Then you will live a long ,

full life in the land the Lord Your Go3d is giving you.”

There are several Proverbs about Mothers even.

Proverbs 1:8

“My child, listen when your father corrects you,

Don’t neglect your mother’s instruction.”

Proverbs 10:1

 “A wise child brings joy to a father;

a foolish child brings grief to a mother.”

NOTE: Both JOY and GRIEF happen to each parent. The distinction is simply a poetic device.”

Proverbs 23:22

“Listen to your father, who gave you life,

and don’t despise your mother when she is old”

Proverbs  30:11

“Some people curse their father,

and do not thank their mother.”

Proverbs 30:17

“The eye that mocks a father and despises a mother’s instructions

will be plucked out by ravens of the valley and eaten by vultures.”

In Matthew, Jesus talks about who is His True Family-

Matthew 12:46-50

As Jesus was speaking to the crowd, his mother and brothers stood outside, asking to speak to him?”.

Someone told Jesus, “Your mother and your brothers are outside, and they want to speak to you”

Jesus asked, “Who is my mother? Who are my brother?”

The he pointed to his disciples and said, “Look these are my mother and brothers.

“Anyone who  does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother!”

Jesus includes everyone who is doing the Father’s Will as part of His family so we are all connected in a spiritual way as well as our physical families.

Happy Mother’s Day.  God Bless All You Mother’s out there.  Take care and I’ll talk to you later.

I love you, MOM!!!  I dedicate this post to my mother, Gail Elizabeth Brenkert.

Becoming the Woman God Wants Me to Be – Intro

I am going through this book called Becoming the Woman God Wants Me to Be – a 90 Day  Guide to Living the Proverbs  31 Life by Donna Partow.  I’m going to tryGo to post at least three times a week from this journey that I am embargoing.   It stated that the next 90 days is going to past by you no matter how you spend them.  You can just mark time by doing nothing or you can, “strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance that race God has set before us.” (Hebrews 12:1 NLT)

Have you ever thought that the Proverbs 31 was a mythological creature or something that was out there and totally unattainable.  Donna says, “I thought she was a weapon spiritual leaders use to make all of us ordinary Christian women feel bad about ourselves.” People say that women of noble character are extremely hard to find and they are right, But then she actually met a woman who was a Proverbs 31 woman.  It was like she had just walked out of the Bible.  It showed her that becoming a Proverbs 31 woman was the only goal worthy of her life’s devotion.

Donna was invited to speak in Colombia and was asked to stay a few days by her host, Hector Torres at his aunt’s house at the base of the Andes Mountains.  Since she had never been to the area before, she went to a bookstore and found little to no information on the area.  What she did fine didn’t even tell her that the area had been torn apart by civil and drug wars for the last three decades.  It simple said: it’s too Dangerous!!! She was just a “little…..” apprehensive about the trip, but she went anyway.

Donna was very pleasantly  surprised when she met Hector’s Aunt, Beatriz Duenas.  She was such a picture of elegance, ease and bety.  She showed us around the breathtaking grounds and we talked amid the fruit bearing trees bursting with bananas, guavas, oranges, papayas, tangerines, avocados, and plantains.  She showed us  her coffee, trout pond, chicken coops, and even her worm farm.  All the property abounded with energy and productivity just like the Woman of the House.

After a wild spread of breakfast that included a variety of fresh-squeezed juices, eggs scrambled with tomatoes, peppers, and onions and freshly grown coffee of which it all came from the property, Beatriz would take a walk to her favorite place which was a small stone and wrought-iron chapel with wooden benches that looked centuries old.  Just by looking at her there you knew you were standing on holy ground.  She told us that she had spent hours here praying, reading, and meditating in this open-air sanctuary.

Beatriz’s story didn’t begin here but in 1950 when she married Jose. She was sixteen and he was nineteen.  A year later a baby was born and three daughters in good succession.  She worked well with Jose.  They worked together everyday in their auto parts store.  Even thought she was a teenager, she was great at business, and they prospered.  Soon they grew into a big corporation with multiple employees and satellite stores locations.  They were best friends, business partners, and lover’s for life.  “They were inseparable.”

What happened on January 23, 1984 changed all that forever.  At 6:30 pm Jose was on his way home.  He was driving along when suddenly his car was surrounded by six kidnappers. They took him out of the car and disappeared.  After two months, They demanded an outrageous amount of money to the tune of $30 million to release him.  By March 19 Beatriz paid the kidnappers one million dollars.

She never saw her husband again!

It almost broke her, but through the pain she begun looking for and seeking out God which led her to walk by faith.  She started attending a little church which provided her other Christians who helped comfort, encourage, and sustain her. She stayed in the mountain home of her husband to tend the garden and started planting money-producing fruit trees using funds from the rental properties he had started as investments.  She was starting to learn how to make it all work on her own.

Her first massive business venture was building four massive chicken coops, which now house 48,000 chickens.  She took out a 2nd mortgage to do it, but she doesn’t regret it at all.  It’s providing a steady income for the paradise and it will continue to do so in the future.

Beatriz then learned about the coffee industry. She read books and took classes.  Today, her coffee product help fill in the money gaps in the seasons of fruit and there are no chickens ready for market.  She even started a worm farm.  She says it’s not successful yet.  This just means it hasn’t been given enough time.  LOL

Donna says, “What I will always remember about Beatriz is not her thriving enterprises and the wisdom God gave her to develop multiple streams of income. What I will always remember is the overwhelming peace that permeated her countenance, her home, and her entire surrounding.” Donna states that the one word that would describe Beatriz would be “Lovely”. Donna commented on the way that there was not even an ounce of Bitterness or Self-pity when she talked regarding her losses.  All  Beatriz  would speak of was her gratitude to God. She was asked what her secret was and she replied, “Forgiveness,” she replied quickly, “It took me a long time to completely forgive the people that kidnapped my husband and robbed me of all that could have been. But the moment I did, the peace of God overcame me and it has not left.”

Beatriz’s parting words to Donna were, “Tell the women they must come to full confidence and assurance that what God has done for me, He can do for them also!” Donna also says, “Do not expect to be entirely transformed into Beatriz’s clone in the next ninety days. Not only is it impossible, it’s not even desirable. God has a completely, customized plan for your life.  Trust Him!!!!!

Welcome to the journey of Becoming the Woman God Wants Me to Be (BWGW)!

Names of God – Introduction

Ask anyone, “What are the names of God or Jesus?” and you will get very varied answers.  Some with say that God is the Father and Jesus is the Son and that is all that they are.  Others will say that God is the Father, The Great I AM, Our Master, Our Provider, Healer, and God Most High,: Jesus is the Son of God, Part of the Trinity, Healer, Lord, and Savior. The names of God and Jesus are so much more than just names.  To understand this concept all you have to do is open you heart and mind to these concepts.  I’m going to lead you on a journey to discover the meaning of their names, but unfortunately  most likely not all of them.  Even though I think and expect perfection from myself, I might miss a few because I am not in fact, perfect…LOL  Let the Journey Begin!!!!

Most of the names of God or Jesus are not really proper names like Cheryl is to me.  Their names are more like characteristics  or descriptions that tell you more about them so that you can know them better.  Some of the names are the same for both God and Jesus.  For example, both of them are called a form of “Lord”: God is called “LORD” and Jesus is called “My Lord”. I will get more into that at another time.

Exodus 3:14 KJV

God replied to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM, Say this to the people of Israel: I AM sent me to you.”

God also said to Moses, “Say this to the people of Israel: Yahweh, God of your ancestors – the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob – has sent me to you.

This is my eternal name,

my name to remember for all generations.”

God does have a proper name as you can see in the above scripture.  It is the Hebrew word “YHWH”.  In the Hebrew language the vowels are only spoken not written so the pronunciation and spelling are still in debate today. “Yahweh” and  “Jehovah” are just two examples of the proper name of God. Jehovah is a form of the Hebrew name of God that is used in only some translations of the Bible.  Synonyms of Jehovah are being used as nouns for example: Absolute Being, Allah, Father, and Almighty One.

Psalm 83:18 KJV

“That men may know that thou, whose name alone is JEHOVAH, art the Most High over all the earth”

Exodus 6:3 KJV

“And I appeared unto Abraham, unto Isaac, and unto Jacob, by the name of God Almighty, but by my name JEHOVAH was I not known to them.”

As you can see in the above verses from the King James version of the Bible, God names Himself, JEHOVAH.  Now the problem is that in later translations of the Bible such as the NLT and even the New King James, JEHOVAH is changed to “Lord” only in small upper case instead of BOLD UPPER CASE!  JEHOVAH is seen more often in the Bible joined with other titles or characteristics such as JEHOVAH Shalom meaning , “The Lord Our Peace.”

YHWH can also be turned into “Yahweh”. It is used about 6,828 times in the Bible.  It came to be regarded by the Jews in about c Bc 300 as “too sacred” to be spoken which is why the spelling and the way it is pronounced is still in some debate even unto this day. Just as JEHOVAH is translated into “Lord” in the English Bible, YAHWEH in the Hebrew Word is built around the words, “I AM!”  Now that is a different topic altogether.

Now we have to ask the question, “Is God’s name important?” Well, let’s look at the prayer that Jesus Christ gave us to prayer:

Matthews 6:9

“Our Father in the Heaven

Let your name be sanctified.”

Let’s also look at how Jesus himself, prayed to God:

John 12:29

“Father, glorify your name.”

In response, God spoke from heaven; saying:

“I have glorified it and will glorify it again.”

Jesus talks to God with respect, and reverence, and honor and places great importance on God’s name.  This sets the stage for us.  We, too, should treat the Father and the Son with respect, reverence and honor, and hold Him in a place of great importance in our lives.

Come join me on a journey into the individual names of God and Jesus and what they mean.  It will be interesting to see where it leads us……

3 Day Quote Challenge: Day 1

Thank you very much goes out to Stuart Tutt of Something to Stu Over for nominating me for this challenge.  I find that it is an interesting challenge especially for someone like me that doesn’t write/post very often.

The rules are simple and as follows:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you.
  2. Post a different quote for 3 days straight, and explain why each one appeals to you.
  3. Nominate at least two new bloggers each day

 

I’ve had an interesting life which has left me with a lot of negative thinking and feelings.  After a lot of seeing doctors over the years and research in God’s Word, I’ve come to the point that I need to change something from negative to positive if I want a more godly life. I started reading the book Deliver Me from Negative Self-Talk.

I chose the following quote:

“An intellectual is someone whose mind watches itself.”

– Albert Camus

This quote really made me stop and think. Thinking in and of itself is both very complicated and simple at the same time.  It is the way that the mind talks.  The book goes on to say that the act of thinking produces thoughts which turns into words leading to actions which creates character.  If your mind is like mine, sometimes it is really hard to even catch a single thought to focus on an turn them into words.

If you are always negative in your thoughts and actions then your life will be negative.  Positive thoughts and actions then will birth a positive life.  You have to change the way that you are thinking to change your character or life.  If I want to be more God-like, then I need to put more of God’s Word in my mind and heart and it will be reflected in my character.

 

Thank you to Stuart for letting me participate in this challenge.  I nominate the following bloggers for this challenge:

  1.  James Edgar Skye,  The Bipolar Writer
  2. Stephanie Jafta, GODINTEREST

For those I nominated, please understand you do not have to participate if you chose not to.  It’s just something fun and challenging.

Journal 2018 – Day 7 – Bipolar and Sexuality

Bipolar Disorder effects all areas of your life but one area I didn’t know it effected much was sexuality. The thing with sex and bipolar is that either you have it in spades and running over or you don’t have an active libido at all. I am of the later which is why I didn’t know it was part of the Bipolar Disorder. A friend of mine didn’t care whom she had sex with, or what kind of sex she had or with how many men she had it with at one time without any protection at all. This kind of reckless sexual activity is called hypersexual behavior is common in Bipolar disorder. Then there is the other side of the coin when another friend of mine had no interest in sex at all. She didn’t want to be touched in any way at all. Not even from her boyfriend. She was fine with cuddles and hugging and kissing, but going further than that made her run out of the door screaming as if she had been touched by a hot poker. As you can see neither one of these situations puts the person in a very good sexual position. The bad thing about the medications for Bipolar Disorder is that it can stop the hypersexual behavior of the Mania phase of the Bipolar disorder but in most cases it will  completely turn their libido off for good.

Some say that Bipolar disorder is the reason for sexual addiction. The two are often difficult to untangle. According to the National Alliance for Mental Illness (NAMI) article “Opening the Door on Hypersexuality,” the prevalence of in the people with bipolar disorder is on average 57%. It involves a significantly heightened sex drive resulting in things like “constantly thinking about sex, a preoccupation with pornography, an abundance of one-night stands, engaging in sex with multiple partners, having random sex, seeking out prostitutes or having multiple affairs even when in a committed relationship.”

Most of these sexual encounters don’t mean anything to the person with Bipolar.  They get momentary pleasure from the experience, but they just crave the act of sex.  They don’t really care where or how they get it.  There is no emotional element to these sex acts. When this disorder has disrupted a person’s life almost totally, that person might become a prostitute to hide their sexual appetite.  This way they  can have as much casual, meaningless sex they want.

People with Hypersexuallty are often more likely to try more risky sexual positions and experiences such as being tied up and blind folded. Masters and Servants are also games that can be played as well as the use of whips and chains.  There is one game that even I am willing to play and as stated above I’ve got no libido, and that game is Dirty Minds.  I’d check it out if you want a little fun.

I hopw that I have given you something to think about.  You can’t always judge a book by its cover.

Shinning through to the Contentment of the Mind

“God cannot give us peace and happiness

apart from Himself, because it is not

there. There is no such thing.”

— C. S. Lewis

Today is the day that the Light of God finally shown through my thick dark skull on my backwards thinking Mind and discovered that it should be trying to find contentment of   the Mind and Soul with God in this life instead of fighting and gathering all the time.  It took a hard kick in the teeth from a very good friend to finally get through this skull of mine and open up my eyes to the truth that I should have learned a long time ago.  I know that I have a thick skull.  I’ve had it all my life.   Sometimes it has served me well, but sometimes it has gotten me in some real deep trouble.

I tend not to learn things the easy way. My granddad used to say that I was a true graduate of the University of Hard Knocks.  I had to try everything out and turn it  all around and even flip it over again and again before taking a look at it carefully and if I couldn’t figure it out then I  would ask for help. No one could ever tell me anything. I just would not listen to them.  I always had to find out on my own.   Being a red flag in a tug-a-war between my two families for my entire life has grown my thick skin on me very well and put it in  place hard and fast.  Besides both sides of my families are also known for their own thick mindedness.  (LOL)

Being content is a foreign concept to me for I have never been content with anything in my life. I have always been waiting for the next, big, new thing that will get me out of my present place in life to get to the next better place in life.  I’m always searching for the next pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

The words Content (to be) or contentment just are not in my vocabulary.  They can be used as a verb, an adjective, and a noun. As a verb it primarily signifies “to be sufficient, to be possessed of sufficient strength, to be strong, to be enough for a thing”  As an adjective used in “sufficient in oneself.”  As a noun it means “contentment, or satisfaction with what one has.”

Let us look at the  All Mighty Monster we call Money first of all.  Money is very tight for me and has always been for most of my life.   I live on a very tight budget, but it works. Praise the Lord! And I tithe every month with it.  I do have a small problem in the fact that I like to spend money and my depression doesn’t help me in this area.  I get really depressed and getting stuff and spending money tends to make me feel better.  I do a lot of mail order and I am always getting catalogs with open credit accounts,  I like to just pretend to order things even when I know I can’t afford it,   Now I realize that I am not living as God wants me to.

Luke 3:14 (NLT)

“What should we do?” asked some soldiers. John replied, “Don’t extort money or make false accusations. And be content with your pay.”

In the above Scripture John the Baptist is speaking to the crowds about the coming wrath of God and the coming of the Messiah.  He was talking of  what was to come  and was giving the people the advice of what they should be doing about it.  Here, he told some soldiers to, “be content with their pay”.   This is very important because not only are we to be content with “our pay”   now but we are also to be able to be good stewards of what God gives us.

Hebrews 13:5  (NLT)

Don’t love money: be satisfied with what you have. For God has said:

“I will never fail you,

I will never abandon you.”

Here in Hebrews God tells us NOT to love money AND to be satisfied.  See “Love  of Money” and the things that money can buy is not contentment.  By my even pretending   to order things that I really don’t need, I was telling God that I was taking care of me instead of letting Him take care of me.    You see?  God will take care of everything for us.    God will never fail us! He will never abandon us!   In this way we are suppose to be content and satisfied with what and where we are.    I’ll leave  you  with this:

Philippians 4:11-13

“Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with   whatever I have.

“I know   how to live on almost nothing or with     everything. I have learned the secret of living in  every   situation, whether it is with a full stomach    or empty, with plenty or    little.

“For     I can do every thing through Christ, who gives me strength.”

Journal 2018 – Day 6 – Depression

Depression. Now that’s a difficult word there. Let’s start with the “official” definition and go from there. According to the National Institute of Mental Health Depression is a common but serious mood disorder. Some of the symptoms are persistent sadness, anxious or “empty” mood, feelings of hopelessness or pessimism, irritability, feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness, loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities, decreased energy or fatigue, moving or talking more slowly, feeling restless or having trouble sitting still, difficulty concentrating remembering or making decisions, difficulty sleeping, early morning awakening or oversleeping, appetite and/or weight changes, thoughts of death or suicide or suicide attempts, aches or pains, headache, cramps, or digestive problems, without a clear physical cause, and/or that do not ease even with treatment. The symptoms can be severe and affect how you feel, think, and handle your daily life. To be diagnosed with it, you have to have had the symptoms for over two weeks. Not everyone has to have all the symptoms. Some people experience only a few while others experience a lot more. It is the most common mental disorder, and it’s most likely caused by a combination of genetic, biological, environmental, and psychological factors.

There are several types of depression

Persistent Depressive Disorder (also called Dysthymia) – It last for at least two years. A person has major depressive episodes along with less severe symptoms.

Postpartum Depression Must more severe than “Baby Blues” ( a relatively mild depressive/anxiety episode that typically clears up within two weeks after giving birth). This is a full-blown Major Depression during pregnancy and/or after delivery. The feelings of extreme sadness, anxiety, and exhaustion that accompany this type of depression makes it extremely difficult for these new mothers to take care of daily tasks for themselves much less for their babies.

Psychotic Depression – This happens when a person has Major Depression along with some form of psychosis such as hearing or seeing upsetting things that others cannot hear or see (hallucinations) or have disturbing false fixed beliefs (delusions). This type’s symptoms typically have a depressive “these” such as delusions of poverty, illness, or guilt.

Seasonal Affective Disorder – It is characterized by the onset of depression in the winter because of the loss of natural sunlight and coming out of it in the spring when the sun comes out again. Winter depression is normally accompanied by increased sleep, social withdrawal , weight gain, and it predictably returns every year.

Bipolar Disorder – It is different from depression because it’s got mania episodes too, but a person with bipolar does experience extreme lows which are depressions, but they also experience extreme high or euphoric or irritable moods called “mania” or less severe form called “hypomania”

Now that’s that out of the way. It’s the dry stuff. The information stuff. Now we can have some fun….Well….to tell you truth, it’s really not that much fun living with depression. Most of the time you have okay days which are spend in partial dread of bad days.  Then bad days hit and your world is torn apart you don’t know when it is going to end.  It is more than sadness and disinterest. It is like falling down a deep, bottomless, smooth, stone sided well at the speed of light. All you can do is hold on and try not to loss your mind.  The only fun is when the mood swings liven up the place. They can change as slow as the gentle wind blows or as fast as a hurricane roars.  Sometimes my changed so often that if plotted it would look like an EKG.  LOL  The key is not going too high or low.

Well, that’s a good overview of depression.  Now I hope you have a basic understand.  If you have any questions, please leave me a common.